I think I'm a forgotten soul..
I hate the way I'm living now..
I hate my life..
I screwed up my whole life..
What am I doing exactly?
I really don't understand myself..
Is this right or wrong...
What am I exactly to you..
Sigh.. I really don't wanna think or care anymore..
I don't wanna cause anymore misery to anyone..
Nobody will ever understand how I am feeling now..
Even if you do, you can't do anything...
Think I should just be left alone...
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In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.
”Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966This is a Thai Extraordinary Pantene Commercial. It's very meaningful and touching. Do watch it! :D
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An optimist stays up to see the New Year in. A pessimist waits to make sure the old one leaves.
”Bill VaughanRecently, I've seen a number of people hopping over from blogger to onsugar. Therefore, I've decided to try it out myself and it seems fine.
Well, I've not been blogging for a very very long time already. Things change and happen. Many things are out of my control. I kept thinking and thinking. Maybe our time is up? I shall see how things goes.
Anyway, next week will be a busy week for me. I will be starting a new course in army very soon. Heard that it's even tougher than now. Got to train myself up too for the upcoming ippt. I want to be able to pass. =(
Alright then, time to enjoy till I book in!
p/s: I don't know what to do with us, don't know whether to talk to you or not.. you wanna guide me? Hmm...
I've been so busy with my new unit recently.
They gave me a surprise birthday celebration!
Andy, Xiang Jun, Markus, Benny and some of their friends are there too.
Wilson, Sebastian and Wen Zhao came too.
Thanks guys man. I really appreciate it.
Thanks BB!! You are always the best!
A group photo. =D
Unfortunately, BB didn't manage to capture a photo of me blowing the candles because his camera hanged at that point of time. Quite saddening but nevermind. Still got next time. (:
Cutting the yam cake!
The cake is nice lor!
A candid photo of me! :D
That's all about it. I really appreciate the effort.
I can't book out on this coming Saturday for my birthday! ):
Got some stupid NE show to take care of..
Helping to get the funpacks ready for the upcoming NDP.
It's really damn taxing on the mind.
But nevertheless, I enjoy being with my platoon at certain times.
The good thing is, they motivate each other.
Around last 2 weeks, I booked out from camp.
Met BB and Chuan first to watch "Transformer 2".
It's was a aweseom movie. It's 2.5 hours la. Super worth the money.
After the movie, they brought me to this garden near Tampines interchange.
They told me they wanted to slack over there so I just followed them.
We reached there, found a bench and sat down.
BB then told me he wanted to go toilet.
I asked if he wanted me to accompany him but he said no.
So I just sat down with Chuan.
Minutes later, BB called Chuan and ask both of us to go over to the toilet area.
Then this is what that happens!
They gave me a surprise birthday celebration!
It's really something out of expection although my birthday is still 2 weeks away.
Andy, Xiang Jun, Markus, Benny and some of their friends are there too.
Wilson, Sebastian and Wen Zhao came too.
Thanks guys man. I really appreciate it.
Thanks BB!! You are always the best!
A group photo. =D
Unfortunately, BB didn't manage to capture a photo of me blowing the candles because his camera hanged at that point of time. Quite saddening but nevermind. Still got next time. (:
Cutting the yam cake!
The cake is nice lor!
A candid photo of me! :D
That's all about it. I really appreciate the effort.
I can't book out on this coming Saturday for my birthday! ):
Got some stupid NE show to take care of..
Damn! I'm so busy with army that I don't even have time for myself! =(
I'm so addicted to this song. It's so damn nice! Must listen! :D
I'm back from camp due to suspected H1N1 case!
Well, I only got 1 thing to say or you can call it screaming.
WOOOOOOOOHHOOOOOOO!!!
I've got alot to say.
I don't know how to put things right in order not to offend anyone.
Whatever I do is never right or fine.
I think I really need guidance.
I've never been so serious and truthful before to a person.
I just want to care and understand more.
Is it really hard?
Or is it just because I'm plain annoying?
Anyone knows what to do?
I am a disappointment.
Towards friends, towards relationship, towards life.
I've never excel in any of those.
I tried my best already.
I really tried my best to give everything I can, to give my 100% yet it seems like 10% to others.
I'm disappointed with myself.
Nothing I do seems to be right.
Every night, I tried to reflect on everything that had happen.
Every night, I tried to change.
But no matter how much I tried, it's still not right.
Well, I guess I couldn't blame anyone for that.
Because, I'm just plain stupid.
Because, I'm just plain stupid.
I don't regret starting everything.
I cherish every single moment with you.
I tried my best to understand and feel what you really need.
Can't you feel it?
I feel really happy with your presence around.
I don't want to lose you.
I am lost.
Okay, I got my vocation already.
A vocation that I don't know what the hell is it about..
Field Engineer...
Whatever it is, let fate decide..
